Inner peace...

I've really enjoyed learning about hypnobirthing. The relaxation exercises have helped me in so many ways and areas. I've been listening to my CD while doing chores, etc. and it's helping me apply its techniques during busy situations. When I start to get overwhelmed (which leads to yelling, crying, etc.), I can just pause, do my breathing, find emotional balance, and move on with the day. I'm really grateful for this.

Another thing that is helping is finding gratitude. It's something I've been trying to work on the past couple years, but kept evading me. I would get caught up in drama & stresses and just feel that bogged down feeling that trials can bring. Reading the Book of Mormon again with my primary class has really helped give me the step up I needed, but couldn't find. It's easier to feel grateful for what you have, when you read about the family trials Nephi had. It's helping me to keep perspective and find joy to focus on.

I'm really grateful for these two things, because I am a crazy pregnant lady! I had begun to develop that filter one has over their mouth... but when people are being rude, it is such a struggle to keep it there. At Costco, it was very clogged at the entrance. I had all three of my boys with me, so we took up more space. We were waiting for an opening, when I spotted a BIG gap in the ATM line. Plenty of room for a cart without bumping into people. I said excuse me, reminded my boys to stay close and not bump into people (they look everywhere, but where they are walking), after I passed the man shouts, "Really!" I turned around and said, "Yes! Really!" A guy standing by looked at me with total disgust. As we're walking down the main isle, the random guy walks past us staring at us while talking to his girlfriend. I figure he's looking at something in my direction, but his stare was pretty intense. Eventually I hear him from 10 - 15 feet away talking loudly about how rude I was and he couldn't believe how I spoke to the other man. We continued walking down the isle, because it's where we needed to go... while this man and his girlfriend continued to talk very loudly about how rude we were for the next 5 minutes. I was about to "invite" myself into the conversation (since it was about me and my crimes), but knew it would make a much bigger scene and just waited for them to head a different direction. I did begin staring intensely back, so he stopped that at least. They were easily in their early 30s, so I don't know why they were acting like 13 year old girls (talking loudly about someone near by for 5 - 8 minutes). Ugh!